I don’t know about you, but life has been one huge rollercoaster for me at least, over the last 6 to 12 months. So far I’ve:
- Been vaccinated from new diseases
- Had a long weekend on the Gold Coast
- Had Covid and recovered with minimal ill-effects
- Participated in a couple 5km fun runs after recovering from plantar fasciitis
- Successfully gotten a new job
- Moved interstate for the new job
- Started renting an apartment for the first time in over 15 years!
- Finally been able to increase the amount of running I’m able to do and sticking as close as I possibly can to a training plan
- Printed many of my cross stitch patterns for sale
- Opened an Etsy store in conjunction with my regular Hot Cross Stitching store
- Created more cross stitch charts for sale and uploaded them to the Hot Cross Stitching and Etsy store (with same name)
- Been consistently inconsistent with my flosstube episodes
- Had multiple thieves come to visit and steal my creative joy
Comparison is the thief of joy.Unknown
I’m not sure who said this and I’ve conducted some searches to try and find out! Simply put, I’ve been comparing myself to others and the levels of success my own flosstube channel and cross stitch websites have had with others whom I admire.
The comparison thieves in my mind have me contemplating if a flosstube channel is the right path I need to take to help with promoting the alternate career I’m wanting to pursue. Additionally, the comparison thieves have me thinking that flosstube is like being in school and there’s an invisible popularity contest happening and I’m on the outer circle.
Admittedly, there are things in my control with my flosstube channel that I may be able to do to improve the situation. The questions however are:
- If I become consistent now, will that help to improve my current stats on the channel?
- What content do I need to create to remain interested in creating it and interesting for people to watch?
- Should I start over?
- Should I just abandon the channel?
- Why did I start the channel?
- How do I find joy in the channel again?
- What is my gut or intuition about this?
- Would collaborations with others help my flosstube and Hot Cross Stitching?
Regaining inner confidence and getting to know my audience again
Depending on the day (and time of day for that matter!), my head, heart and gut are saying Yes. No. Maybe. Just stick your head in the sand and pretend everything is okay.
I need to remember that this is just temporary (hopefully!) and that I am not everyone’s cup of tea. Like with anything, there are ups and downs and the social media side of things is just a minute aspect of the bigger picture. It’s important – don’t get me wrong – having a digital footprint is important and the success of that footprint can make the world of difference with regards to what I’m wanting to achieve.
My questioning of things comes down to the bigger picture of whether I’m on the right track and if I’m not, how to get to that right track!
It’s a bit like any aspect of changing careers. There are good days and bad days and the challenge is to not allow those good days to be out weighted by the bad ones. Now the challenge is to remember this on those bad days!
Obtaining feedback and working with it
Talking to my viewers will certainly be another positive step forward and getting some feedback on what they want to see from me. Just assuming what they want to see and what types of patterns people are actually interested has not been the right track to date and it may be a small pivot that needs to be made.
It may be that cross stitch charts aren’t the way to go, but selling photographs are! Perhaps I’m suited to continuing to work in the background and have someone else be the face and voice of my flosstube channel?
What’s the lesson in all of this?
It’s really hard not to compare myself to others and their achievements and wonder why I’m not seeing the same success. There will be good days and bad and I need to be comfortable with those bad days and the good. Allowing those thieves to creep in though, is something I need to keep an eye on and potentially create a cross stitch pattern out of it to serve as a reminder of how important joy is to my overall wellbeing.
Additionally, there’s been a lot going on and the stresses involved with those activities are bound to take a lot of energy out of me. So I need to give myself a break (to an extent) and figure out where my energy needs to be focused to be okay and stop those thieves at bay!
What do you think? Have you had the creative thieves creep in? How have you recovered from them?